Kenny Is Getting It Back

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Get busy living… or get busy dying…

… and from out of the darkness comes the resolve to make even more changes and accept that it’ll take longer than I want it to and be much harder than I can imagine… but, I HAVE TO SUCCEED!!

I know, at this point in my life, that I will likely never be rich and/or famous… and as I’ve gotten older, both of those things have become less and less important to me. I will settle for being happy, and my happiness is never greater that when i am playing music, on stage, for people who truly enjoy what I am doing… I tried so hard to take the easy path in life that I could have done the right things and worked half as hard in the end. I suppose, for me, it took half a lifetime to come to this realization, and really own it. Even though I never really felt entitled to anything, I still felt that I had something coming to me somehow; that I was meant for so much more that what had become…

The only time I feel alive is when the music is playing, it’s then that I feel the energy pulse around and within me. I lost my way years ago, anger blinded me, fear lead me to bury my heart and hide away. I don’t know what I am going to have to do now, but, whatever it is, I am ready to face it now, unafraid. I am tired of being a cog in the machine of a system I want no part of, life is too short to live only to fund a future that you have no place in… I want to enjoy whatever time I may have with my whole being.

Get busy living… or get busy dying… well… I choose to get busy living. This is officially the final blog that I will write under the Kenny Is Losing It title… I will be starting a new blog that will chronicle my journey to regaining my heart and sharing it with the world… it will be called…

(to be announced… in a “title only post” very soon)

to all of you who have read my blog and supported me, I want to thank you, from the bottom of my heart…

- Kenny

Feeling creative and hopeful…

So far so good… a good start anyway. With the exception of a few beers, I have succeeded in drinking nothing but water for the past 8 days. I don’t, however, think that I’ve been drinking enough water though. I need to ramp up my intake daily. I also haven’t been eating anything that is overly processed or purchased from a “fast food” establishment. I haven’t gotten back out on my bicycle since I was sick, so I fully intend on getting out there some time tomorrow. I really enjoy getting out on the bike trail and going for a while.

Okay, the last couple of nights I’ve been really getting into some new software that I have on my computer. I’ve been itching for a creative outlet, and while I’m no Picasso or anything, I’ve done some decent work. Just some sketches, photo trace assisted, but all by hand, so, not bad. Tonight I actually created a piece from scratch, a little on the colorful side, not clearly defined, but again, not bad…

I appreciate all the support I’ve received from all my friends and family. If you don’t already know, the last year was pretty tough, and this year started out with some major cluster fucks. I won’t go into detail right now, but, with the passing of a close friends grandfather just days ago, I fear it’s not the last one in the near future. I’m hoping for the best but, unfortunately, preparing for the worst. You see, there’s not a lot of hope in that area. I’ll explain another time, but, my guess is if you are reading this, you just might have a good idea what I’m talking about.

I’ve been burning the midnight oil this week, I really need to get back on a “normal” schedule, which means I have to either get up earlier than I want to tomorrow or get to bed early tomorrow night. Either way, I say BOOOOOO! Even now as I write these words, my eyes are becoming more tired. I guess this is where I’ll leave you until next time. I’m hoping to continue with my new plan of attack… Comments and subscribers are always welcome…

- Kenny