… and from out of the darkness comes the resolve to make even more changes and accept that it’ll take longer than I want it to and be much harder than I can imagine… but, I HAVE TO SUCCEED!!
I know, at this point in my life, that I will likely never be rich and/or famous… and as I’ve gotten older, both of those things have become less and less important to me. I will settle for being happy, and my happiness is never greater that when i am playing music, on stage, for people who truly enjoy what I am doing… I tried so hard to take the easy path in life that I could have done the right things and worked half as hard in the end. I suppose, for me, it took half a lifetime to come to this realization, and really own it. Even though I never really felt entitled to anything, I still felt that I had something coming to me somehow; that I was meant for so much more that what had become…
The only time I feel alive is when the music is playing, it’s then that I feel the energy pulse around and within me. I lost my way years ago, anger blinded me, fear lead me to bury my heart and hide away. I don’t know what I am going to have to do now, but, whatever it is, I am ready to face it now, unafraid. I am tired of being a cog in the machine of a system I want no part of, life is too short to live only to fund a future that you have no place in… I want to enjoy whatever time I may have with my whole being.
Get busy living… or get busy dying… well… I choose to get busy living. This is officially the final blog that I will write under the Kenny Is Losing It title… I will be starting a new blog that will chronicle my journey to regaining my heart and sharing it with the world… it will be called…
(to be announced… in a “title only post” very soon)
to all of you who have read my blog and supported me, I want to thank you, from the bottom of my heart…
- Kenny
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